Why are my children crying? Is it because when Audrey finished her last bottle I noticed there were big clumps of formula that did not mix up. Obviously I didn't shake the bottle well enough. Great, now she won't gain any weight because all the nutrients she needed were in those clumps. Or is she crying because she got switched to formula because her mother couldn't produce enough of her own milk and now her once well moving bowels are constipated? Is James crying because since he got switched to formula he now spits up where he used to NEVER? Or his he upset because he is constipated as well?

Audrey is sneezing. Once, twice, three times in a row. Great she is getting sick. Back in the hospital she goes. Did I not cover her well enough while she slept last night? Does she not have on enough clothes? No, the doctor said sneezing is just a reflex. But maybe she caught a chill last night during her bath. Well she doesn't feel warm, maybe she is okay. But what if she is not?

Why does James sound as if he has a gallon of snot in his nose. I just cleaned it out and got absolutely nothing. Maybe he is getting sick too. Probably because his bed is close to a window and it was cold last night and he didn't have on enough clothes. Or, maybe he had on too many clothes, got overheated and that is how he is catching a cold. Or worse. Maybe RSV. No, he is getting shots for that. Very expensive shots. How are we ever gonna pay for those shots? They have to have them. No option. Maybe a money tree will start growing in my back yard tomorrow.

Maybe they are both getting sick because this morning I was on the computer and they started crying and I forgot to wash my hands before I touched them and now they are gonna catch some deadly diesease. I am a horrible mother. How are they ever gonna survive with me as their mother? Now I feel sorry for them. They didn't pick me. They got stuck with me.

What if Audrey turns out to be a serial killer because I didn't hold her enough when she needed it because her brother was crying because he was hungry too. Didn't talk to her enough when it was important and now she doesn't have any social skills and turns gothic when she becomes a teenager because she can't make any friends because her mother didn't have time to make sure she got enough "tummy time" at the right age.

What if James becomes a cleptomaniac when he grows up because his mother paid more attention to his sister than him as a baby. Which makes him do extreme things to get attention. Hurry up feed James so Audrey can get her diaper changed or be held because she is crying uncontrolably. Get done with James and throw him down to get house work done. Poor James.

Hey maybe my children are crying because neither one of them got burped well enough because I didn't have an hour a piece at 3 am to burp them properly. The doctor said " eat slow, burp often" Now I am a negletful mother. But when it takes forever to get them to actually open their mouth to take the bottle how can I possibly stop them to burp them. Because the minute I take it out the other one will start crying because it is 15 minutes past their feeding time and they don't understand why they have to wait. Yep, just like I thought. Now Audrey won't open her mouth and there goes James. So, I let her gulp it down knowing it will cause her to have a HUGE spit later but I can't take James' screaming any longer. Now I am a selfish mother.

Okay, got Audrey down and asleep. Get James and change his diaper. He hates to have his diaper changed and starts screaming. It gets louder and louder because not only does he hate to get his diaper changed he is STARVING because his sissy took to long to eat. Now he has swallowed to much air, has a huge bubble and won't eat. But is still crying because he his hungry. Now Audrey starts crying because James is so loud he could wake up the dead. AHHHHHHHHHHHH.................................................................

It may all sound dramatic but these are the actual things that go through my head every day. Maybe I am going crazy. Great, now my kids will have to visit their mother in the nut house.....see here I go again!

Good morning everyone. Miss Audrey here had to go have her Newborn Screening done again yesterday. (they had to prick her little heel and squeeze blood out to fill up 2 small viles? and then on to some paper for the PKU) Why, you ask? We don't know. We just do what the doctors tell us to do. Supposedly, they didn't do it when she was born. How that happened I don't know. Anyway, she was such a brave little girl. She hardly cried. Just sucked on her pappy and held on to my finger for dear life. Every now and then she would let out a yelp and curl her lip up sending us to the brink of tears. If you look closely you can barely make out her little dimple!
They call me Mr. Chubbs!

This is one pooped little girl. Eating is hard work when you are 2 months old guys! See her little mittens? SuSu brought those along with other cute little things!

Have you ever been so tired that you just don't know how in the world you are gonna get through this next hour? The middle of the night feeding that is just so brutal? And it is at this point in the night that you and your son are both crying. But then, he throws his chubby little arms around your neck and burries his face in yours. And for a few moments you forget all about how tired you are and your just standing there in the kitchen and suddenly tears of exhaustion turn to tears of joy and you know you can make it one more time!

For those of you who never got to see the twins in the NNICU, I wanted to let ya'll see just how much (and how well) they have changed since they have been born. We are nearing their 2 month birth day--I can hardly believe it. But sometimes it feels as if it has been years, not months. And can you believe that yesterday was their original due date?!!! We can finally say they are supposed to be here. But seriously, for those of you who saw me the day before I went into labor, can you imagine how utterly HUGE I would be had I made to yesterday with those kiddies still in my belly?!!!

Okay, see why I had James pegged as the sickly little mama's boy? I was so broken hearted because I just knew he was gonna be a shrimp and always get picked on. But uh, he had different plans. I guess he knows you can't be a sickly shrimp and play pro football! But he can still be a mama's boy, right?

Our little line backer has made the most changes. And I told him if he would not sleep
with his mouth wide open he would not get the little crusties around his mouth. Bit Bit has only gotten longer really. She is still just a little bit. But don't let that precious little face fool ya. She can let you know who is boss. She has a set of pipes and is not afraid to use them, at any time. Seriously, she can make you think her leg has been cut off so you go in there to see what all the comotion is and she is just laying there screaming. No real tears, nothing and the MINUTE you pick her up she hushes. It is like she is saying "just checking"

This was the day that they got moved into the same little corner in the NNICU. It was so sweet and we were sooooooooooooooo excited. They had been apart for way to long.

Okay, I promise I do hold my children. It is just no one is ever around with a camera when I do. Or maybe I am obssesed with taking their pictures. Who knows. I figure this is just how it is gonna be for the rest of their lives. They will know they had a mother, it just wont be documented!

How cute is my son? I know, he looks like he is smiling but really that is a face from the flash that was to bright for him. But we can pretend that he already is a ham like his cousin Harrison was at such an early age!!!! His head is growing with such enormous speed he has out grown all but 1 of his hats so I had to buy some new ones and couldn't pass on the pooh! The large head may worry some of you but it is just a trait he inherited from the Mizell's!! Sorry ya'll, couldn't help myself. If he turns out to have large ears like the Bryant's I will allow a crack at that!

Below you will see my dear darling husband fashioning a tree stand. We went to buy the tree yesterday which literally went like this: We pull up into the yard, Jon says "which one, that one or that one?" to which I replied "that one" and he said "done" got out, paid for the tree, helped the man tie it to the top of the minivan and away we went. Jon had to go back to school so me and the kids sat in the van for about an hour (long enough for them to eat) with the tree on top of the van and all the kids pointing and staring as they walked passed us. Then we came back to the house, forgot the tree was on top of the van and tried to pull under the carport. Didn't get very far before we were reminded! He got the tree off, had to cut the tree again and let it soak in a bucket. Then we remembered that in all our haste of throwing things away so we wouldn't have to pack them when we moved from Gray, we had thrown away the tree stand. Since we are a GOOD 25 minute drive from anywhere that would sell a tree stand, we decided to wait. Today after school, Jon would rather be here than in town so he decided to come home and build a stand. Which in my opinion is genious and a really good stand but can't ya'll hear the banjo's in the back ground?! When in the sticks do as the hicks!

This is what James and Audrey thought of their first Christmas Tree! Isn't it sweet how excited they are! Ah, I am sure next year or probably the next year or maybe even the next year they will be dancing around so excited that the tree is in the house, finally!

Ya'll should know that the tree is still bare naked standing in our living room and will probably stay that way untill friday. But it has atleast made the house smell delicious! That is James getting a bath. They really love their baths . Audrey loves hers so much that she fell asleep the other night during hers! ATLAST we have DSL. I can't believe how much faster this whole process is! Getting on the internet is actually fun, something I will look forward to now. So ya'll can expect alot more pictures in the future. We even have unlimited long distance which is something we have wanted ever since we've been married. Some things are just worth paying for!

What a day! I was running around the house like a maniac trying to straighten up before the Home Health lady came to give the twins their RSV shots when about 20 minutes before she was supposed to be here they called to say she wasn't coming. Something about one of HER kids being sick. The nerve! Just kidding. I know other children do still exist in the world. Anyway, she is coming next monday instead. I considered just stopping the cleaning and being lazy but I figured I may as well finish. But, 4 hours later I am sitting here typing and uploading pictures for all of you to see and still have not finished the cleaning. And now my babies are starting to realize (meaning the are taking turns crying) they will be eating in less than 30 minutes and I still have not gotten their "food" for this round. Enjoy the pics! This is Audrey's day today on the blog! Isn't she so cute!!!!!

Good morning everyone! We had a great day yesterday. Jon had some real bonding time with James and Audrey. He babysat yesterday afternoon and let me go to Wal-Mart to get some groceries and stuff. He is so good to us! He is also gonna babysit this morning and let me go to Trinity to church since I haven't been in almost 2 months. Shhhhhh.......don't tell any one the preacher is staying home! It will be SO GREAT to be back in church, with live singing and preaching. Thank goodness for cd's and tapes but they just aren't like the "real" thing!

James and Audrey continue to grow by leaps and bounds. Every day when I look at them it is so hard to imagine that they were ever in the NNICU for so long. Not that I have forgotten by any means, I will always remember how they looked those first few weeks of life. They were so pittiful. But they are getting so fat and long and strong now. When we took James to the cardiologist thursday they had to weigh him and he weighed a whoping 6 lbs and 4 oz!!!! The Lord has blessed us so much in our lives and He continues to do so.

Hope you enjoy the pictures, I sure enjoyed taking them!